here is my second post for today.
my mum doesnt love me.
nor does she love my son.
she shouts at nik when he misbehaves only a little! with that kind of look,
tt tone, that voice. she doesnt love nik!
she nv looks aft him, nv plays with him.
she doesnt love me.
she went out wit her OWN family. step sis & dad.
i cant go out, it was raining.
she went out the WHOLE day and she never buy anything for me to EAT.
thanks mummy. for NEVER SHOWING me love at all for the past 18 yrs.
THIS GREATLY affects my life becos u are my only family then and i DON FEEL ANY LOVE FRM U.
my childhood memories, sadly. i DONT RMB A SINGLE THING.
must have SUCKED.
which is why i expect so much love from my bf.
becos i dont get any love. like family, kin love.
maybe they do love me so much. but i expect more more more becos im so stressed.
nt loved. SO VERY LONELY.
i cant feel happy no matter wad. why? how?
i feel like dying.
i cant be happy. how can i help myself?
i know ppl are all very worried abt me. BUT I REALLY DUNO WHY.
IM SUPER DEPRESSED. dont wish to survive anymore.
8:34 PM