what happened was..
I broke up with beloved shengquan.
Reason being like. He says he's useless. But its just something like he cnt provide for me & nik.
He cnt give us happiness etc. He cnt quit smoking.
He doesnt have the will to study.
I still love him as much. But if he thinks this is a better way then i'll just go with it.
Im very glad tt it did not end bad, we still close friends atm.
We both know wad we both wants. He wants me to be happy & promise him to find a better guy.
I really dont wan to end it. Im still SUPER heartbroken.
Its really bad la. Im very heartbroken. ='(
But sometimes im sick of feelin tired. i dont like to be sleepy & tired all the time.
sometyms i wish i can have a guy tt cn support the family. so i can b a housewife.
But its never easy, to find a gd guy. Like for my case, he has to be able to support nik & i, older den me, caring. i do nid alot of care and attention. becos im very tired frm everything.
his parents must be able to acc us and all.
Thankyou sq, for all u've done. u're someone special to me. always rmbed.
rmb this, i had never ever wanted this to happen tis way. sigh.
for the last tym, i love you. (:
LOVE. dont find me. dont mk me fall in love with the wrong guy every single time.
i always break up with my bf becos of stupid certain reasons tt i nv wished for it to happen.
i can wait and i believe the next time, i will find my devoted other half.
for the meantime, i nid time. lots of time. to heal my wounds.
i need nik.
i need my besties. i wnt to be happy and nv think of it again.
thx vanessa, thx chris, thx yelena.
i love u all.
thx nik. mummmy will stay strong. becos no matter wad, u're still the one boy i love the most(:
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